Friday Morning

I feel ok...actually i feel fat and out of shape and lazy. I know i have been working hard but i have been neglecting to care for myself and my body in a way that will ensure my long term health and happiness. I'm not sure why i have such a self destructive nature about me. It is not that i really consume huge amounts of alcohol or drugs. It is fairly moderate but it seems like i am always just a little altered lately, for the whold day. I do have unemployment but I feel such a strong urge to go get a job instead of focusing on the things i need to do to get the art business up and running.